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Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Nothing Worth Having Comes Easy

Worried family, I am alive. 

Last week consisted of a test Monday, validation Tuesday, clinical Wednesday, validation Thursday, test Friday,  and I had a test this past Monday. 
I was able to do really well when we had the first round of tests this semester, but wasn't able to pull that off again this time around. I was really disappointed but literally would take a test, put those books away and start studying for my next test. So I feel like I should have studied more, but really did the best I could with the situation of a week it was. 

I was pretty much able to coast through all of my schooling up until college, so I'm still learning new ways to excel and study. Tough weeks like last week continue to teach me how to be a better student. People always told me this journey to be a nurse would be hard, I didn't know it would be this hard. Last week I was thankful to be at Trinity so I didn't have to spend time with Nathanael or my family and friends back at home because if I was at school at home I would be forced to neglect everything but school, being far away was definitely an advantage. I was bummed I couldn't keep my good grades up but I still feel confident that this is what I'm supposed to be doing. In fact, advising starts next week, meaning it's time for preparation for next semester! 

I know my last post was about two weeks ago but I have been busy with school. I also got to enjoy reading weekend at home. I had off of school two Fridays ago so I drove up to Appleton to see Lyssa and she even did my hair for me. It was SO good to see her apartment and have a sleepover together. That Friday I did a smidge of shopping but got home in time to FINALLY go on a date with Nathanael. I am loving Ala Roma lately and as always, I got my way.  Saturday I did a little bit of homework and then headed to the nursing home for a few hours. I miss having a job working with those old folks, or rather, I miss having time to have a job. Sunday we had communion so my dad sat with all the elders up front so I sat next to my sisters. Anyone regularly attending Bethel may have noticed our regular Sunday lineup, I sit on the end next to David for a reason. Rudith and I managed to drop and shatter a glass full of wine, Beefy and I almost dropped the bread, and the whole bench was shaking from laughing at Dad the entire service. 

I am also looking forward to returning home again this weekend to celebrate Rudith's profession of faith. I'm so glad you are officially declaring the fact that we will get to laugh and joke together for all of eternity. This also means I get to see my family from Oostburg, who I haven't seen since August!

Justine and Kathy stayed with Anna over reading break, it was fun to have a weekend with them in Wisconsin. We even attempted to take a few pictures at Anna's. 






We attempted to make the self-timer work so this is what we got! It got a little bit dark but we still had fun.

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Ready or Not

Ready or not, clinicals are coming, clinicals are basically here,clinical is TOMORROW, clinicals...I have to take care of a patient! Ready or Not? I think I'm leaning towards not.

I woke up today and thought, I'm so nervous, I just need to make it to Thursday so I can take a breath at home. 

But before going home I have to validate on the heart and head today, drive to Harvey to pick up my very first patients information, meet my patient, write drug cards, figure out how I'm going to care for this person tomorrow night, and then actually be a nurse tomorrow! That's a lot of pressure! I keep thinking of myself as a CNA, thinking if something goes wrong I can just tell the nurse, only to remember that I AM the nurse. 

This morning I flipped my little calendar to October 9 finding, "I believe God is managing affairs and that he doesn't need any advice from me. With God in charge, I believe everything will work out for the best in the end. So what is there to worry about?" God knows I'm worrying, that was a reminder to let Him take me on this crazy crazy ride. 

I'm not ready for this at all, but I don't think anyone is!